Day 9;

Starving Day..
Nothing much's happening..

Weigh in tomorow..
Luck?
Hopefully 55' thats UGW..
but we'll see anyway...

Rock and Blud.

Dun dun

Haha totally went silonce on this one:
Apolpgies.

Anyway am doing an until Aug 8th challenge where
am meant to be at least in the 150's...
Apparently we open school on 30th so we have to try and lose
as much as 20 pounds those remainin days okay?

ANYWAY.. umm.. today is Day 7 and Im meant to weigh in
at 161. but Im starving the whole day so that'll prolly happen
in the morning. IF im good- or LESS. i get a snack if AM NOT..
i continue the fast till I get a point that concides w/ the # of pounds I
was meant to lose by then.

Anyway checkin out..

Rock and Blud.,

Intro.

My silent undoing.
No one else knows..
My mum wouldn dare..
and thats the only person I know..
No friends, no life..
Its summer, and Ive been in the house since I closed school..
This time is serious... I choose this..
I want it to be my life-style..
I dont wanna fight it..
Its like a disease.. you dont ask for it, it jus comes..
and then you must live with it..
Without it your nothing.
It dominates your life in the sense that when your not doin it you feel
like your on the wrong..
I pigged out today...
I wasnt hungry, I was anxious...

Why?
Why?
Whatever, its here I might as well as deal with it..
I wanna go back to how my life was..
I hate everybody..
I love no one..

True.
This time Im serious..
This time I will suceed...
How many times have I said that..
This time, this time,
But again.. that is my life.
No complains..
My silent undoing..
No one knows, no one cares...